Not that I am particularly good, but I have often wondered why God ‘allows’ bad things to happen to ‘good’ people. Especially now.
If you know the experience of Job as detailed in the Bible you will see what happened to the good and ‘righteous’ servant of God who was stripped of everything – his children, his livelihood, his comfort, his health. Oh but he was spared his wife.
So in my own ‘Job experience’ it hurts me more than anything that even though marriage left me estranged from my immediately family, in 2012 I gave birth to and subsequently lost my baby
, on top of that I am also losing my husband who does not want to be married to me any more.
So this is why I can’t respond to your wedding invitations, hen do invitations, birthday invitations, dinner invitations, party invitations etc. Because every day I am simply surviving and I can’t pick up all the broken pieces of my life and I can’t pick up all the shreds that remain of my heart, of my confidence and of my dignity. I am wallowing through it every day.
At the end of the biblical story of Job, he was given twice as much as he had in the beginning. So my prayer is that all the tears and all the pain I carry will be removed to leave space for the good and purposeful plans God says He has for me.
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.