When it comes to music, I'm something of a repeat offender.
Rarely (read, 'never') do I listen to a complete album one track after another. Instead I prefer to pick and choose my two or three favourite songs and simply skip my way through whether I'm listening on my iPod, my phone, at home on the record player or in the car.
Last weekend while driving home from church I had finished playing my favourite tracks - tracks two, five and seven on this particular album - and was suddenly aware that I hardly knew any of the other songs on the album and was getting bored of my favourites.
And it got me thinking. I've been going through such a tough time lately I just keep wanting my life to speed up. God tells me He has great plans for me, '..plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future.' (Jeremiah 29:11) And I believe that, I really do. Its just I want to get to that now.
I don't want to have to deal with the rest of the album that is my life, I don't want to have to go through the tracks that are not so great. I just want to skip to the good ones.
I wish I could say that this realisation made me want to stop and listen to the other tracks on the album, that maybe I would appreciate my favourite tracks more and likewise enjoy where I am in life right now.
But to be honest, it didn't! I still want to fast forward to the best bits and its the same with my life but I've realised that if I can't change where I am right now, I might aswell try and live it. I might aswell listen to the track that's playing right now and see if I can get anything out of it. Maybe it won't be my favourite track or the one that makes me laugh. Maybe it will be the one that makes me cry. But it will do something. And its just one track and no song lasts ever.
God won't let me press the fast forward button on my life but one day I'll get to my favourite track. The one I really like. And I will enjoy every second of it.