“As much as you hurt me, why am I holding on, why do I feel the need when I know I should just let go.. …have to wake up from this dream and know, all this ain’t worth losing no sleep no more….as much as you’ve done to me, still I keep holding on, why do I feel the need when I should just let go”
Sometimes I have to remind myself that I’m a woman God has redeemed, a woman God has said I will take care of with plans to prosper and give a hope and a future. A woman who has career aspirations only she can achieve skill only she can execute and an undying love that is freely given and should be freely received.
A new friend of mine said recently, “Stay faithful in love and the joys it can bring......even after the hurt.....love always repairs your heart and belief in hope & how amazing the world can be.” It’s true that we should always love because love gives us hope to carry on even after we have been trampled on time and time again. It reminded me of the Love chapter in the Bible. (1 Corinthians 13) It’s hard to hear that when your love returns unrequited or is abused but its true that Hope is the way forward and the future for all who believe in it.
Right now I’m in a place of melancholy where I constantly have to look in the mirror and tell myself I’m worth it. Never think that you’re not! When you wake up, get dressed and dance in front of the mirror and tell yourself you’re a star……when you drive to work, wind down your windows, blast your music and let the morning wind wake you up and be glad that you’re alive - you survived, when you get on the tube, conduct your own music video in your head from the music on your MP3 or I Pod, smile at everyone and remind yourself and everyone else how beautiful you are.
People tell me two things that I have to remind myself and although they may sound clichéd, they are true.
Firstly - Don’t cry because it’s over, smile because it happened. Secondly - No man is worth your tears and the only one who is, will never make you cry.