That wasnt a rhetorical question! A friend of mine commented recently that having been a Christian all her life and having always known God, she feels luckier than most. I do too. I'd just feel better with a trust fund!
This month I've realised how much there is I need to and would like to be able to pay for. In no particular order there's my:
Peugeot 207 CC ELLE with Rock Chic interior and Thorium Grey finish for the exterior with a built in sat nav, my trip to Miami with the girls, a trip to NY to drive a certain person's lovely Porsche, a weekend holiday to sunny and accessible Europe for my birthday, clothes from All Saints, more shoes, a walk in wardrobe for my shoes and new clothes, my own office for my own magazine, permanent hair removal, extreme hair growth solution for my head (its 2008 you must be able to buy this somewhere), a new house, a summer apartment and enough money so that I could adopt a baby boy and look after him properly..........then I'd be happy.
Well I wouldnt be completely happy but happyish. Happier than I am now. :)
(Yes there's an obvious moral line to this tale but can you please just WAIT, I'm carrying out an excercise in streams of consciousness...look it up!)
Just like Mr Robin Thicke, I've often had dreams AKA the longings of a self conscious mind where I've had it all, wanted for nothing and its been great! At least I think it has....it took me a whole hour once just to plan my outfit and there is usually music playing in the background so no one really says anything ... :s but hey, we look like we're having fun! I've been a sizzling dancer, a hot singer, a fun loving video girl - for Pharell of course and duh you know that was a dream because my skin tone is two shades darker than caramel :( - and a hot to trot catwalk model.
Oh and sometimes I'm really popular too. I always come out with witty comments (these are the dreams that dont have music people please keep up..) and everyone laughs and thinks I'm cool...Ok example? In real life a famous person (comedian) who happens to be my FB (Facebook) friend wrote as his status:
Just becuase you put your hand on your waist! Does that make you a model???
Ironically MY profile pic is one of me with my hands on my hips (not waist) so I immediately took offence and replied back on MY status (in my 'dream'),
Just because you make your surname Comedian on Facebook, does that make you funny??
which I though was pretty good. Not because its true (although even if it was true I would never say it for fear of being permanently ostracized from London Society)- he is funny. But because I said it and everyone around me laughed. In my DREAM.
Sometimes I prefer myself in my dreams! I am more open, take more risks and enjoy life more. Today I wanted to tell someone something but I didnt because I wasnt sure how they'd take it. The me in my dreams would have said it anyway. Maybe I should.
My friend used to say that if she were rich she'd be horrible. (Personally I think that's just an excuse to stay poor.) Maybe I would be horrible too but it'd be nice to have the chance to know, after all I might not be! A colleague, on telling me about his trip to his girlfriend's parent's villa in Italy, gave me some interesting advice - "Marry into money, it can never fail you."
Only he's wrong. Because money can fail you. Have you seen Jocelyne Wildenstein's face? If you put your faith in riches, you will fail. If you put your faith in God, you will.....not fail...I should go to Bible school right?... :) Jokes aside I love my life, I have to, its the only one I've got!
But its fun to dream for fun and productive to dream for the future......If you dream you're a singer go do it! Dancer? Go do it! Accountant? Go do it! Go dream yourself happy!
CC Girl xx